~decipher my scribbles~

2007-12-21T13:16:00.000+08:00

time to multiply !!!

Areeqa @ 15 weeks!

2007-10-04T16:51:00.000+08:00

Wow! How time flies! I'm now back to work full gear already. Fast right? How i wish i could just spend time at home with Areeqa... But i'm confident that I'll do fine juggling between career and her. I'm lucky to have a boss and colleagues who are understandable, especially for these past few weeks. I do miss her when I'm at work... Well, here are some pics I've taken of her.... so does she look more like me now? ....

random pics of little Areeqa

2007-08-16T11:09:00.000+08:00

Here's some random pics of my little darling.... how time time flies man... she'll be 2 months tomrw!

Areeqa @ 3 weeks old!

2007-07-08T22:16:00.000+08:00

A Whole New World...

2007-06-25T17:10:00.000+08:00

Welcome Little Areeqa Nadia!

Our very own bundle of joy!

My very own princess

Born on 17 June 2007
@0553h
weighing 2960g
@ KK Women's and Children's Hospital

Words cannot describe how I am feeling inside
Here are some photos...

lying in the delivery suite... waiting for the big moment

at last! she's out! after abt 5 hrs of labour!

first peek @ mommy!

Mommy & Daddy looking relieved!

Mommy, Grandma and Little Areeqa

The look after a sumptious meal...

Areeqa after 1 week !

Phantom Maclaren?

2007-05-01T12:26:00.000+08:00

Must say thousands of thank-you to hubby for spoiling me on Sunday. We watched a matinee show- The Phatom of The Opera and I lurve it! Fantastic show. We had good seats (Cat A, Circle One) and the seats are unblocked. Good performance!

After that, we could not resist going to Max Brenner's Chocolate for the delicious chocolate drink and fondue!!!! Slurp!

This is hubby, trying to pose with his new PDA phone!

For those of you not familiar with this box, it actually contains our first big buy for baby!

A Maclaren Techno XLR (2007 model)

Sounds 'chim' hor! But i think its worth it. Initially we wanted to buy the 2006 Classic range but since we've set our eyes on this new model, cannot tahan, must buy! We lurve the colour - crimson tan and it comes ith a reverisible crimson -tan seat liner, shoulder pads and head hugger... and it is car seat compatible too! So this means I can put the car seat on the buggy. And Baby will be facing me! The price? well, i rather not list it here... heh:) We have also 'reserved' a Maxi-Cosi CabrioFix car seat too - in matching colour... hmmm...:) Now, I must look for sponsors for the other items... hehe... Some ppl have been asking me for a BB wishlist. Thinking abt it now... will post it soon... well, till then. Have a jolly May Day!

contented saturday afternoon

2007-04-22T13:07:00.000+08:00

went shopping yesterday with murni and baby irfan... not for myself but for the Lil princess in me... good bargains at mothercare! must say thank you to auntie murni for buying Lil princess such cute shoes! i lurve it. *muah* and how irfan has grown into a very hansem toddler... wah... and met suhanni too! wif hubby and baby ilyas... makes me think - i be like that in few months too... with baby in stroller... cool man... all i have to do now is pray and wait... it be abt 8 more weeks... BB room is almost ready... hubby juz need to do some touching up to the borders and i will sew a simple curtain... here's some pics of some of the stuff i bought / pressies from loved ones...

must gain more weight

2007-04-11T18:49:00.000+08:00

doc said i must try gain more weight... woah... i thot i already eaten a lot! past month, i've onli gained 1 kg... no good at all.. i think it's stress... hahaha! i think it's the post promotion syndrome. promotion= more $$$ + more responsibility + more accountability - weight ... hahahahah!!! what an irony!
i think i must learn how to slow down already.. but how? in this fast moving world? Sigh. Anyway, my BB room is almost ready. I'm left to buy the pillows and mattress... haven't got my e-bag ready yet *grin*... maybe this weekend lah.... see how...

10 more weeks

2007-04-09T07:36:00.000+08:00

to evryone who's wondering what the heck happened to me - i'm ok. it's just one of those pre-natal blues... me worrying abt everything in the world... sigh. must learn to relax more lah. i'll take evrything in my stride and pray for the best!

So.. 10 more weeks to go! so fast rite? This little princess is kicking me ever so actively nowadays. especially if the weather is warm! Well, is it just me or is it really that the weather is very hot nowadays? I can't stand it. Am always in aircon now... think i've been pampered by dear hubby... u know, he even clipped clipped my toenails for me (among other things lah... hehehe) he's been fantas-bulous! lurve the footrubs and tummy rubs and all... and he's quite excited abt the arrival of his little princess too! And he even said yes to the Coach bag that I want... oooohhhhhh.....

Yes, me hit by the shopping bug again! so many things out there, so little time to spare. cos i hate going to the malls nowadays. its like crowded and parking is hard to find. i really wanna shop but been saving up my $$$ for a big bang spree... anyone care to join?

my head is spinning

2007-04-01T19:09:00.000+08:00

my head is spinning.. yeah u heard me. I've got this problem and i don't know how to solve it. I am disappointed with the way things are turning out. all not going how i want it to be. i am in a dilemma. how? how? how? i am very very sour towards this person (used to be very close to my heart) and i know it shouldnt be the way. but i cant help it. i will need to make a BIG sacrifice.. and already i am going to feel a totally new experience soon (new member in family) and i hope i can handle all this man... why? why must it happen to me?
i can't take this you know. all my life i've worked towards the betterment of my family and my future but when i need the help i want, i can't have it. sigh. i pray things will turn out the way it is. i dun want to end up being one of those people...

just my ramblings

2007-03-19T13:27:00.000+08:00

I am so glad that hubby is finishing his reservist soon, this friday. It's been quite horrible actually for me, cos he really gotta wake up early and sometimes only reach home by 9 or 10. Last friday, it was 1130pm!!! Anyway, I gotta seek refuge at my mom's in Pasir Ris... no need to cook.. hehehe :) Actually, i shudn't be complaining cos for some guys, they had to camp that entire 3 weeks of reservist and onli comes home on weekends.. so sad rite, expecially if they have wives and children at home... hmm.. count myself lucky cos he can still go home everyday.

So since he been out- serving the nation, I spend my time sleeping, resting, dreaming of BB's nursery and window shopping. luv window shopping and of course, taking down notes of whatever i wanna buy... Been buying BB stuff little by little lah... not many clothes though, cos BB will outgrow his clothes quite fast rite? I'm such a sucker for mothercare products, so i actually bought some stuff at their suntec closing down sale last weekend. And my bro is going melbourne, so I told him to buy some stuff there too... i hope he gets the rite one :)

On Thurs, i spent a wonderful afternoon with one of my best gal frens, Dhalia. The other mommies are all working. Lunch with her at the club, then a pedicure at Flaunt!@Mandarin Hotel then ice cream at Paragon. We talked for hours, mostly mommy talk.. it's always good to hear other mommies' point of view. Made me feel much better. Hey guys! We must meet up soon okie!

2007-03-11T18:19:00.000+08:00

Ooops... here are the photos as promised... enjoy!

2007-03-08T07:48:00.000+08:00

How time flies and i'm alreadyin my 26 weeks of pregnancy. My tummy is definitely showing and the Lil' One has been moving in me more times than ever... especially at nite. As the weeks go nearer, I begin to feel more excited about motherhood... the changes that I'll be going through, the changes Hubby be going through... trying my best now to cope with work but as you all know, work is still work.. cannot finish... i feel so tired at times but still gotta persevere... another reason for not updating for such a long time now...

So what's been happening? Hmm...

Had a fantastic CNY holiday. Booked a marina-view room @ Ritz-Carlton Millenia... what a wonderful time there! and the fireworks at nite.. wow! right in front of us! Comfy comfy bed, excellent room service, big big flat screen TV... superb supper... and the bathtub! yes, the bathtub, with unblocked view of marina bay...

Next day, met with gal-frens at vivocity... wah, packed man. Despite the initial difficulties in finding a place to eat for all of us and babies in tow, we managed to find a plc at White Dog Cafe (no pork, no lard)... the food is not bad, esp the cookies and cream milkshake.. it is to die for.. and the babies - all grown up from the last time I saw them- all into "toddler-hood" now. Can't wait for my Lil princess to join all the handsome princes... heh:) U princes, don't bully her okie!

Well, here are some photos... enjoy!

Pink, Laces & Frills

2007-02-13T09:15:00.000+08:00

So... it's confirmed. A princess on the way... officially can look and buy pink, lacy and frilly stuffs. Looks like this hot mama will be strutting in town looking for stuffs for her princess. Anybody wanna tag along? The Daddy? He is definitely ecstatic! Now, he can buy that "Daddy's Girl" jumpers soon... Will Princess be Liverpool or Arsenal fan? Hmmm....

BB stuffs

2007-01-31T22:46:00.000+08:00

As promised, some stuff i saw on the internet.. just lovely... lovely, lovely, lovely... can't wait to get my hands on them!

verdict?

2007-01-31T10:51:00.000+08:00

So, I went for my detailed scanning yesterday? The verdict? Well, no sign of a penis... Girl? Heh:) my jaw dropped! Happy? of course!!! All my best frens have boys and if this is a girl, really its time for a mega celebration! A princess!!! Daddy's girl... Doc also mentioned that I shud try to gain more weight cos I only gained abt 3 kg so far... so I am now really trying to eat more... not snacking lah but healthy stuff u know... I'm going for another detailed scan in 2 weeks time, so hopefully, this time around baby will be a bit bigger and show HER (or his?) true self to mommy & daddy!!! Whatever it is, I just want my BB to be healthy...

*Little One, you are always in my daily prayers... mommy loves you!*

Till then, I'm keepin my wallet, cash & cards with me and try not to spend on any baby stuff yet, eventhough I've received quite a no from all u well-wishers out there! Love ya guys!
Hmm, talking abt spending, I already have in mind quite a no. of stuff in my baby wishlist... will update soon ok! right now, all the pics are at hm. Once i get them, will let u all see what i'm wishing for! Hehehe...

p.s. I'm crazy abt Classic Pooh stuff now... maybe that be the theme for BB nursery... not confirm yet lah... but anyone has any idea where i can but classic pooh fabric?

banana split!!!

2007-01-20T17:47:00.000+08:00

it has been 3 weeks into 2007. I'm into my 19 weeks of pregnancy. My tummy is growing bigger. I have trouble deciding what to wear to work. Argh!!! Hey, dun get me wrong ok. I'm not that STRESS... trying to cope a day at a time especially walking up and down the stairs (4 levels) like 10 times a day! But I am pleased wth myself. Eversince pregnant, I find myself being very neat, always wanting to "kemas here, kemas there" and my time management has improved tremendously.. super dooper...
Can't wait to buy baby stuffs... or should i wait till the baby is born? which stroller to buy? hmmm.... have promised my sis that I'll get her involved (eh, dilah, u will rite? dun back out ah! I need someone to paint the room ok! Will get the whole entourage of siblings helping me with that!) I lurve being pregnant.. i like to see my tummy grow, now i can feel like some feeling there.. like fluttering, wriggling, aiyah dunno how to describe...
Anyway, I am craving for banana split for like days now.. and I am going to get it today!!! Will meet dear Moonie and Dhalia at Swensens' later and have a jolly good time... Wiipppppeeee!!!

minah rock wannabe

2007-01-06T13:48:00.000+08:00

music... i lurve listening to music... am never without my trusting ipod... now I'm into malay songs, dunno why, don't ask me why cos i dun even know why?!!! but i dun listen to the crappy pop songs overplayed by this particular malay radio station,but those that reminds me of my childhood days... heh.. rock songs aper lagik? from the late 80s to early 90s, like search (all time fav!), Wings, BPR, M Nasir, Iklim, Mega, oh my god! I sound like a minah rock sesat!!!!! i know, can't believe it rite? but really, i was crazy abt them when i was young. and the creepy thing is that, i can still remember the lyrics! And i will sing to them to my hearts content esp when driving! Gosh! After all these years! Hubby was surprised too! Oh no... what's gonna happen to me? Anyway, begged a colleague of mine to lend me all his CD collection so that I can listen to them at home. hehe....

On the other hand, I am looking for kakis for the John Legends concert next Monday. Anybody game?

new year

2007-01-02T19:58:00.000+08:00

So, the new year just whizzed past us, huh? Don't take this the wrong way, I am very very excited to 2007,but I juz think that its not such a big deal to celebrate it in a big way u know, with all the disasters, bombings, fightings happening in the world... from the flood (and I don't mean the one in SG but in Malaysia and Indonesia), the sinking of the 2 ferries, bombings in Iraq and Bangkok, etc... oh my, what a start to 2007, right? I am just praying hard that there are more sensible ppl out there so that the world will be a better place to live in. And the rich should help the poor... anyway, on the eve of new year, we thot of juz spending time quietly, just the two of us, by watching either firework or flares (from the ships at east coast) but where did we end up? Lying on the couch, me in his arms, dozing off... heh:) it was nice though, we onli woke up at 1 am cos i was hungry! the rest of the nite was spent watching good soccer, with hot cup of horlicks and crackers. love it. Happy new year guys!

KL shopping spree

2006-12-25T19:47:00.000+08:00

Someone mentioned that my blog is dead... well, it's just 'resting'... hehehe... actually, quite true lah, it's been a long time since I update anything. Not that I am lazy or something, it's just that my lap top crashed and I am so devastated! I hope it could be saved man... cos many many impt documents and I didn't make any copies of them! Oh well!

Went to KL for 3 days. Did some serious shopping - 4 pairs of shoes and many many maternity pants (from those Malaysian-made stores!). So cheap! And nice too... I mean, i was shopping for some maternity stuffs b4 the KLtrip and i was so shocked to find that a pair of pants can cost 89 bucks! I was warned before, but i thot i cud find cheaper versions elsewhere but no.... I mean its just pants, for tops, yes, I think the ones here are nicer... no frills, lace, ribbons, etc.. I want nice simple chic tops. This mommy wanna look good you know! Heh:)

These are some of my buys on the first day there! I lurve my 'ciplak' Le Sportsac bag- a steal at only $15 ringgit only!

So after the KL trip, I really really recuperate at home! rest rest rest! Wake up late almost everyday! Clean out my wardrobe, packed unwanted clothes, Clean house like crazy, blah blah blah

Oh yes, we celebrated our 4th Anniversary with a simple lunch at Straits Kitchen. Drools! The naan and tandoori chicken is to die for! I lurve you dear! Thankd for the superb lunch! These 4 years have been amazing! And this year is a little diff, although "never go far far away holiday", still, it is special with the lil one in me! You know, marriage has taught me many many things, dun even think i have the space to write it here but one thing's for sure, be grateful of what you have. Yes, there are rough times, ups and downs but you will pull through. Treat each other with respect.

Now, counting the days back to work. Sigh. Work. Next year, new challenges. New faces. New responsibilities. I pary I'll have the strength to overcome it all.

officially 2nd trimester...

2006-12-11T18:01:00.000+08:00

visited the gynae today. can't believe that i'm into my 2nd trimester now... fast huh? doc gave me some multi-vits to increase to appetite too... i need that badly. cos really, i dun eat well now. little rice and absolutely no chicken or 'smelly' food for me - includes all the yummy fried stuff, all fast food, no going to Banquet, no fav chicken rice or even fish slice soup! Its been sandwiches, biscuits, bagels for me... hmm... quite fat free diet i think, like 'ang moh' diet, ppl call it.. hehe.. except for the occasional cravings of pisang goreng / banana fritters... and i actually lost weight! oh my.. was quite worried but doc said its normal, i should regain my appetite real soon... oh man, can't wait....

anyway, did the scan, as usual. Goodness, the lil' one has grown! Heart beating so fast, can see the head, hands and legs all... i almost cried!!! very emotional period for me... hubbby was there too, he was so amazed! Also, the lil' one moved the hands, as though waving, at us, the parents! maybe that's why I havent been able to sleep well at nite nowadays... maybe he/she is active at nite? Hmm.... wah... so exciting man.... next appt is on 8 jan and 31st jan... and oh yes, we are so amazed by the excellent and prompt service at the private suite, we have chosen the premier package u see, and all subsequent check-ups will be done at the private suite, and all scanning will be done by my gynae,... appt was at 1050am, was there by 1030 to do routine checks (urine test, blood pressure, weight) and the nurse called me in at exactly 1050am! I was done by 1110am! Very fast! Short waiting time... so much diff from the specialist clinic. and the best part, no need to go to the pharmacy to collect the prescriptions, cos it's all done there as well! the presciption comes to you! Of course, must pay more lah for all these services, but i think it's worth it... can't wait for next visit!

Well, tomrw I'm off to KL for a mini shopping trip, have booked a nice 5* hotel with big bath tub.. hehe... till then...

droolz

2006-12-06T17:27:00.000+08:00

Wentworth Miller aka Michael Scofield, the prison Break guy... cute right? Heh.... Basically, he is the reason why I watch Prison Break. Do i sound like a 15-yr old?

ramblings

2006-12-06T17:15:00.000+08:00

gotta admit it, I hate it when hubby have to work on nite shifts. especially now that I am expecting. he always pampers me at nites with my unusual cravings - foot rubs, tummy rubs, braed with nutella? hehe.. so this week, he is on nite shift and i am going back to my mom's. home-cooked food? yeah! so sorri sis, gotta share the room with you again...And... i finally finished all my ironing!!!! woo hoo! i hate ironing, can't believe some ppl find it therapeutic! i need a part time cleaning lady man... anyone got any lobang?

my blog's DEAD

2006-11-30T20:31:00.000+08:00

I need to blog more often man... this blog's dead! hahaha! Oh man, been real busy this time of the year. so much things to do, so little time, so little energy. My fav pastimes nowadays have been sleeping (whenever i can, watching tv and reading). So lazy even to check my email! What is happening to me!!! So the past few weeks have been very trying for me and here's why:

1) I fell ill - bad flu attack. Was given many days of MC - thanks to doc who understand my condition and being pregnant means i need more rest! Eventhough the medication given is baby-safe, but i thought i would do better with a lot of rest and only took the medication at night, instead of trice a day as prescribed. and it works! I feel so much better now!

2) I got through my INTERVIEW!!! It was a nerve-wrecking experience, with a lot of mock-up interviews prior to that, having grilled with so many overbearing questions abt policies, leadership qualities, contributions to organisation, etc.. Thank goodness it is all over! Now i can look forward to the yearly allowances end of the year! Not sure how much though... but i am sure it will be more worth it than doing the job for free all these years! And promotions coming up too!!! Wippeee!!! Double promo! Double happiness.. think it's baby luck?!!! i think so too...

Hmm, since we are in this topic, i know that there'll be more work for me next year... but i wanna think that I am doing this all for my family, you know... especilly for the lil one in me. Better pay, better future prospects - not only for myself. I guess I've always had that "drive" in me, take every opportunity that's available, you know... cos these opportunities might never come again...

3) Appraisal - Dunno why, but i dread end of the year appraisal - what have i done? contributions? results? etc etc... blah blah blah...

4) Hunger pangs at night - I am always hungry in the middle of the night! So i'll wake hubby up, go to kitchen to get biscuits with Milo or something, eat while watching some TV and go right back to sleep! i am so scared I'll gain weight fast! Oh no!!!

5) Can't fit into my pants! - yes, i give up! can't fit into most of my pants. depressing... every morning now, i am posed by this question: What to wear? Lucky i have abt 4 pairs of drawstring and stretchable pants... need maternity pants . need to go shopping... argh!

ok ok.. can't think of anymore to write for now... need to watch TV... Prison Break is coming up.. I just lurve the show! Well, i think I just lurve Wentworth Miller! he's so cute! Heh:)

New toy!!!

2006-11-03T14:12:00.000+08:00

New Toy for my "Baby"!!!

Hubby surprised me today. He fetched me from Mom's place in the morning as usual, then at the carpark, he suddenly gave me a kiss and said that he loves me... hmm... so sweet right? Then out of a nowhere, a gigantic Toys R Us plastic bag appeared! A toy? He was smiling, no, he was grinning from ear to ear. I swear I could count all his teeth during that moment. All I could do was laugh with him...

He bought a Transformers robot, not any Transformers robot, but the Cybertron Primus! Helloe? Am i missing anything here? Didnt ask him for the price, but i think it's surely $100+++ cos the robot is huge! And if you notice, there is a label: Age 5+, well, its more like 5+25 for me!

Hehehe... My husband, my "Baby", a child at heart too.... I've come to understand him completely... Don't ever mess with his Liverpool & Transformers stuff... I don't mind really, as long as he doesnt grumble about how much I spend everytime @ my hairdresser's, or spas, or mani/pedi, etc.... Hmm... I wonder what's next?

2006-11-02T14:21:00.000+08:00

I've been @ home this whole week. Yup, my gynae gave me a week's of medical leave due to blood spottings. Told me to really take it easy and REST! No physical activity! and that includes, climbing stairs, lifting heavy things, etc. Well, ain't all that part of my daily work? Gosh... must think of some ways to aviod all those huh... It was kinda scary at first when i saw the BLOOD, i mean its like when u menstruate u know... luckily doc didnt see anything harmful and the baby is fine (Thank Goodness) So this whole week been really a fruitful week for me, read a lot, watch TV - I'm hooked to Hallmark's The Nanny!!!, tried not to do too many housework as hubby 'volunteered' for them. He's excited too you know, my hubby, although he manages to stay calm and composed throughout the time. I love it when he put his hands on my tummy at night.. heh:)

Eventhough the GP told me that i was about 7 weeks pregnant, but when i checked with my gynae, he told me that I was about 6weeks. Whatever it is, I want to be healthy. Must eat healthily now. cannot skip meals. Had my first craving - banana fritters! Ask my sweet hubby to but bananas and i made really sweet banana fritters last nite and ate them while watching CSI. i still have the leftover batter in my fridge...

2006-10-21T18:52:00.000+08:00

Positive!

Yes, it's positive! I wish i had used a better camera than my phone!
The doc also confirmed it. I'm ecstatic!

2006-10-05T05:36:00.000+08:00

its 5.30 am and I can't sleep.... actually i refuse to sleep. and do u wanna know why? cos i am so scared that i be late for work. woke up at 450 am today to eat 'sahur'- before fasting for the rest of the day... last wk, i almost didnt make it to work cos i overslept! haha!
well, what to eat tonight? i feel like having sushi... hmm...

2006-10-02T00:10:00.000+08:00

what a week! I think my entire kitchen is working doubly hard this entire week! Why? I've been sizzling up the stove! Been cooking... not bad huh? I think i've cooked more times this week than for the past 6 months or so! and i'm so glad to say that i've not lost the ' magical cooking' touch! but, but, but, because of the cooking and waking up extra early, i've been having body aches. my body is still not seasoned to waking up early! so today, we went out to eat.. it feels so good to have someone serve you and bring you food and drinks... cool...

well, its gonna be 3 more weeks to hari raya and i've not even started on a thing, need to spruce up my home, clean and change the curtains, buy hubby's baju kurung, blah blah blah. Thot of buying a new sofa, but nah... still love my old one, so comfy... i can just sit on it the whole day... dun care what others say, i can't part with my sofa, its been there for me for the past 4 years, through think and thin, i've read and finished countless of books at one go, by sitting on that comfy sofa, i rate it as the best one ever...

so, today hubby was asking me: Where do you wanna go for hols in Dec?
Wow! Cant believe i'm hearing that. cos its always been me, asking him and planning for all our trips. So he was thinkingg of going to Japan. I've never been there. Never thought that I'll be going there one day. I mean, i dun understand the language, and the food, oh my... but i trust him and whatever he'll be doing. so its kinda confirm we are going there in dec. and its like snowing there... woo hoo.. i wanna see mt fuji. but we can onli afford abt 1 week. enough rite? just tokyo and regions ard it.. hmmmm.... i wanna go to the hello kitty dept store! and the LV boutiques! See see only, cos its so blardy expensive there right? Buy in sg cheaper... ooops, better not let hubby see this.. cos he warned me not to ever buy any bag/wallet with brands starting with or acronyms with LV or G_ _ _ _ ever again!!! Hehe... good ol times...

well, i'm off to sleep now. i'll be dreaming of Sanrio Land and Mt fuji...

Sayonara!

2006-09-26T16:30:00.000+08:00

Ramadhan is here and this means that Hari Raya is about a month away. i like Ramadhan, i like fasting... it gives me a sense of peace and tranquility within me. think it must be the goodness of the month. well, this year, i plan to cook more. (so that we can eat at home instead of breaking fast outside!) So far so good, but a little tiring cos i need to get up earlier to cook. but i'm happy. cooking is a good way to bond with your husband. he'll do all the cutting and preparing drinks, i'll handle the cooking part. and we share the workload of the aftermath- cleaning up! yikes! and good news, i havent felt lethargic at all during work. this is good.

now, i'm planning what to cook this whole week. its so exciting you know...

and NATAS fair is coming really soon... spain or italy?

2006-09-16T20:00:00.000+08:00

these past 1 1/2 week has been quite hellish for me.. so much so that i feel i am falling into a depression or something. It all started when 'someone senior' mentioned something abt me. (won't say exactly what happened here here cos i don't wanna be accused of slandering or something.. haha!) Anyway, it really hurts... really really hurts inside. I don't know why i reacted that way. I kept thinking abt it until i've got migraine for 2 days and need to go to the doc's. I feel so depressed. My husband, poor thing, gotta listen to my cries and woes, until friday when i just fell ill... migraine.. and need to be in bed, shut out from all sounds and light source... depressing. Am i too sensitve? I don't know. So far, I'm opened to criticisms, taking them like a pinch of salt... I guess this one is a real blow bcos of the way other pple handled it.

I feel that all my efforts so far are all gone wasted... down the drain. How dare he said such a thing about me! And he has no right to judge me in that way cos he doesnt even work with me! Only on that particular event, he's just not happy at the way i execute my plan... and to think that one my close colleagues ( my senior) actually believed what he said! She is like my mentor and knows me and my working style and i've always put work first... sigh. so sad. and the way she mentioned this matter to me. so casual yet, 'right in the face'. i was stumped. The few days after that, I feel that i cannot go on working in such a backstabbing environment. Why put in so much effort, when it just take one occasion like this to ruin it? This guy is like the most coward person i know! Cos he didnt dare to tell it my face! I have had many unpleasant experiences at work before but this is just too much!

After much thinking, i realised that why should i be so strssed abt this. I must be strong and carry on what i think its best for me.

2006-09-06T22:10:00.000+08:00

well, for those of u who tried calling / sms me last sat, you would notice that my handphone is switched off... yes, for the first time in like 8 years or so, i've made myself uncontactable from anyone for 24 hours!!! why? well, i think i need the peace and quiet. Ppl from work keep calling me! And its a sat u know! I need my rest! huh!
well, anyway, i had the best time just lazying ard at home, on my bed, in my airconditioned room, sleeping... zzzzzzzzzzzz....... wonderful, divine beauty nap....
then i decided to swtched on my handphone at 10pm and guess what? 14 unread messages, inbox full... wow... can't believe it but its true..... and out of these, 8 are work related. what else can i say?

2006-08-29T22:08:00.000+08:00

Last week was a hectic week. and do you want to know why? Cos its my birthday!!!
In the first place, i wasnt to excited abt it, cos it just reminds me that i'm NOT in my mid-20s anymore! Boo hoo... in fact just 3 yrs away from the big 3-0. Gosh! time flies so fast man...

Anyway, celebration was great! Thanks to those of u who painstakingly plan small mini-celebrations for me despite of ur hectic schedule. Thanks for those who send me wonderful messages (sms, mms, msn, etc) really appreciate it. And oh yes, janet, i've received your card. Thanks a lot! Love ya all...

Well, my hubby has planned a 3 day bday bash for me.. (he's so sweet rite?). Sat, i went for manicure/pedicure. lurve getting pampered and spoiled man... [than dinner at the zoo- company dinner lah.. it was actually a nice place, no mosquitoes so im very happy. plus i got to dressed up as a modern 'pocohontas' with brown dress and hair tied up in ponytail with 3 bird feathers as decorations... hehe. ] Sat nite, we stayed up late, watching dvds, till we slept on the couch... woke up like at abt 11am the next morning!

Then Hubby drove to Hyatt Hotel, where we had a sumptious buffet lunch at Straits Kitchen. Fantastic Food! Yum Yum! Then we walked in town, browsing through knick knacks while having such a wonderful time, blending with the crowd of mostly teenagers! made me feel so young, u know. Then we watched a move- Lucky Number Slevin. Quite a good show, though we didnt read any reviews abt it at first. we picked the movie cos it was RA (21) and we thot "oh good, no kids!" We enjoyed the movie thoroughly and i must say, josh harnett is still as cute and ever.. drool... then went to have teh tarik at our fave stall at bugis then home.

then later at abt midnight, hubby came into the room (u see i was relaxing in my airconditioned bedroom with a super comfy comforter over me, while watching another dvd- 'tristan and isolde'. and in his hand was a tub of ben and jerry's ice cream!!! Awww... what a way to celebrate my 27th hatch day with my fav ice cream served in bed!!! and u know what? on the actual day, hubby and another gd fren of ours, najib, treated me to another sinful round of chocolates galore at Max Brenner's chocolate at esplanade. splendid! i think i must have gained a few kilos this week... hehe... well, its only once a year right?

2006-08-24T19:17:00.000+08:00

you know how both of us gets bored easily... well, a few weeks ago, we decided to divert from going to in-laws place.. (tsk tsk tsk.. so naughty!). since i was driving, i decided to turn into Lim Chu Kang area. (for ur info, i've never been here before! and this was really a last min thing!). i was like following my instincts.. (didnt know i have one.. hehhe..) and we came to this place. like kampung like dat. like as if we were not in singapore, some rural and ulu place.. anyway, we were there for like a few min onli, cos it was going to be dark really soon and i dont like to be in an unfamiliar and ulu place at night! scaredii cat!

2006-08-24T09:47:00.000+08:00

i think i am going crazy. i talked to myself too much, especially so when i am under stressed. is that normal?

Like there's this colleague whom i do not really get along well with. She was babbling away and me as usual, try not to listen to her and talking to myself.
Suddenly, i thot i heard her saying 'are you listening to me?" and staring at me! and all the while, she was still babbling to me and frens. i mean its like i can feel her talking to my inner self! gosh! i am freaking out. am i normal? i am really freaking out. help!

2006-08-23T14:46:00.000+08:00

from durians to rome...

so happi today. happi happi happi.

i dont know why but i suddenly had this craving for durians right early in the morning. everywhere i went, i smelled durians. i need to eat durians! so i sms hubby and told him abt my craving.
Ain sms: "Wanna eat durians. ok?"
He said ok, we'll go for durians after dinner. yeah!!!

2 hrs later...

was surfing on the internet... travel magazines. i lurve to read travel weblogs. so interesting. i wish i cud go to far far away places like fiji, canada or argentine, etc.
that's it. made up my mind.
it's gonna be either rome-florence-venice or madrid-barcelona-seville for me end of this yr.
well, if we can afford it lah. need to check my accountant first! hah!
then sms hubby again about my 'bright' idea.
Ain sms: "Wanna go rome?"
Hubby sms: "Huh? Rome? so.. durian how?" [he's actually quite blur... heh.. but still lurve u leh..]

i'm puzzled. guys... can never get them.

2006-08-20T11:18:00.000+08:00

One day, i walked into this shop, trying to find a nice top. Found one i like, a chic bohemian inspired top... tried on the usual size 'M" but found out that it was too small around the chest area. I was flabbergasted when told that the largest size that this shop carries is size 'M"!
Oh my gawd! size "M"!!! What kind of shop is this?
Oh... i know! Its a shop for the slim and boobs deprived! (Brutally frank here!)
Ha! Ha! Ha! I've never heard of such shops before. I'm not saying that the shop is THAT bad, the clothes are nice and trendy, but its a worrying trend that maybe some ppl will starve themselves just to fit into the dresses and tops, and not to mention the pencil thin pants.
Anyway, good luck to the shop man. With the trend now towards being thin and anorexic, i'm sure it will be popular!
As for me, I've got nothing to lose. Found another top elsewhere. Hmmm... maybe 7 yrs ago, i could fit into those tops and dresses, but now... nah...

2006-08-19T18:35:00.000+08:00

I'm a confirmed weirdo !!!

You Are 40% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird...
But too damn weird to do anything about it!

How Weird Are You?

2006-08-17T21:57:00.000+08:00

surprise letter

this evening, as i was opening the mailbox, i saw a white letter with "Speeding Kills" logo at the back. I was like "huh? speeding? what the ....! can't be me!"

dated 12 Aug 7.56am. lornie rd. vehicle travelling (1-20km/h) more then speed limit of 70km/h.
hmmm... can't be me. Cos hubby had the car that day. argh... not again! i was so pissed, until i read the next paragraph:

"...no summons action will be taken against you or the driver of the vehicle.... advisory letter..." wah lau!!! so relieved man! if not, hubby will have to pay 130 bucks plus 4 demerit points! ouch!
it must be my lucky day today!

2006-08-15T19:28:00.000+08:00

since my bday is coming.... (hint! hint!)

Your Birthdate: August 28

You have a Type A personality so big it makes other Type A's shrink away in shame.
You never shy away from adversity - and you love to tackle impossible problems.
Failure is not an option for you, and more than a few people are put off by your ego.
You tend to be controlling, and you hate leaving anything up to chance.

Your strength: Your bold approach to life

Your weakness: You don't accept help

Your power color: Bronze

Your power symbol: Pyramid

Your power month: October

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

2006-08-15T09:40:00.000+08:00

Ok. The war has begun!!!
I had an exhilarating time last Sunday!
went to play paintball at orchid country club.
It was fun!
I didnt realise how unfit I am until the game finished at 530pm. I had aches all over!!!
But it was sure fun... thanks to a good fren ,Najib, who organised this outing! Here are some pics for u to enjoy....

2006-08-13T10:51:00.000+08:00

How do you hold on to someone you've never met?

2006-08-13T01:25:00.000+08:00

Song of the day

Baby since the day you came into my life
You made me realize that we were born to fly
You showed me everyday new possibilities
You proved my fantasies of love could really be

Let's go to a place only lovers go

To a spot that we've never known

To the top of the clouds we're floating away yeah

Ooh this feels so crazy

Oh this love is blazing

Baby we're so high

Walking on cloud 9

(You've got me up so high) So high

(My shoes are scraping the sky) So high

(You've got me up so high) Oh

(My shoes are scraping the sky)

Maybe later we can go up to the moon

Or sail among the stars before the night is through

And when morning comes we'll see the sun is not so far

And we can't get much closer to God than where we are

This is how love's supposed to be

This is how, this is how love's supposed to be, yeah

Let's go to the moon baby, ooh

Let's go to the moon baby, yeah

Let's go, go, let's go to the moon baby

So high...

So High - John Legends

2006-08-11T12:12:00.000+08:00

VIGA vs Ain

conversation between VIGA (very irritating grand aunt) and A (myself), a few weeks ago...

VIGA: How long have u been married?

A: 4 years this Dec

VIGA: no children?

A: nope, not yet.

VIGA: why? look at Man (her son)... married for 2 years, already got 2 children

A: (staring blankly at VIGA) Oh, is that so? I wanna see the world first, travelling.. We went to London, Paris, Switzerland, Australia and Thailand as vacation the past 4 years you know.... (with sarcatic undertone and gave her this 'Have Man and wife been to these places?' look while cussing inside... )

i know I can't help myself but sound really bitchy while talking to her.. irritating! What's up with these people? Can ask me why I have no kids! I mean, of course I want lah... Of course there must be a reason why up till now I still haven't conceive yet... Must i tell the whole wide world my problems? Can't they just shut their damn big mouth? Then can compare me with other people some more?!!! Why? Why? Why? Mind your business... and quit telling me how to live myself... i'm sick of you and those pple out there who just don't understand what I'm going through...Instead of encouragement, this is what I get? only those closest to me know how i actually feel inside...well, after this, VIGA stayed away from me and I dun care at all. I don't see why i need to apologize too.

The lesson behind all this is : Don't compare ppl's life. You don't know what's goes on behind the facade.

2006-08-10T13:49:00.000+08:00

finally, got my new Samsung 19' LCD monitor!!!! (thanks to hubby, who obviously is pampering me!). i love it.. and i also bought a new computer table... cos i hate my metallic small table.. and this new table (from ikea) suits my new monitor... hehe :)

2006-08-05T18:02:00.001+08:00

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Physical Touch
with a secondary love language being
Quality Time.

Complete set of results

Physical Touch:		10
Quality Time:		9
Acts of Service:		6
Words of Affirmation:		4
Receiving Gifts:		1

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

2006-08-05T18:02:00.000+08:00

what a week it's been! so busy and eventful.
I finally managed to convince hubby to watch 'the lakehouse' with me. And you should see his disgusted face!!! So farny... whenever sandra bullock and keanu reeves said those corny romantic lines... Frankly, i really wanna watched the movie cos of keanu. he's like my first "on-screen boyfriend". after watching his movies 'pointbreak' and 'speed', i find him totally gorgeous! (minus the fact that he can't act lah) after 14 yrs, he still looks good man! oooooh.. and i guessed the ladies in the same theatre as me would totally agree to what I'm writing now. almost 3/4 of the audience were ladies... all swooned by Kee-ah-nuu.
also, this week i bought a new bag and a pair of shoes! Its a black polka dots pair and a yellow bag. so happiii. and hubby was half asleep when i got back to show those things i bought. He simply nodded and went back to sleep... heh :) will post the pics of my new buys later when i can find my cam.

2006-08-03T10:56:00.000+08:00

This photo was taken on Janet's last nite in SG. 4 of us went for dinner in town and really had a great time! Love ya guys!

2006-08-01T15:15:00.001+08:00

Finally, found the skin i like... Phew! Now some of you might be wondering why i decided to change to another blog. Well, hmmm... i feel that i need the change, maybe with this, i will blog more often ( i hope so, cos the last one was so pathetic!)
Also, i'm into another chapter in my life- a lot of things are going on now in my life and i feel that i need another channel to just let off steam, my angst, views about everything in this world, many views i think are just my own selfish thoughts. So i need to scribble them somewhere and what better way than to blog! Then at least in a way its a channel for you guys to know what's been happening with me.
I am more a writer than a speaker. I am more frank, sometimes outright honest and direct when i pen down my thoughts. You see, i tend to be more diplomatic when i speak to someone face to face.. i think must be due to my nature of work. So i hope this blog will do it for me.

2006-08-01T15:15:00.000+08:00

hi... testing. testing.