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nur ain
28 august '79
a self-confessed shoes and bags whore
sees pleasure in reading
Sophie Kinsella, Mitch Albom, Jodi Picoult, Marian Keyes, etc
enjoys travelling
listening to music
kanye west, suede, oasis, U2, John Legend, Mary J Blige
spa treats
retail theraphy
movies junkie
food connoisseur
adores loving hubby
these past 1 1/2 week has been quite hellish for me.. so much so that i feel i am falling into a depression or something. It all started when 'someone senior' mentioned something abt me. (won't say exactly what happened here here cos i don't wanna be accused of slandering or something.. haha!) Anyway, it really hurts... really really hurts inside. I don't know why i reacted that way. I kept thinking abt it until i've got migraine for 2 days and need to go to the doc's. I feel so depressed. My husband, poor thing, gotta listen to my cries and woes, until friday when i just fell ill... migraine.. and need to be in bed, shut out from all sounds and light source... depressing. Am i too sensitve? I don't know. So far, I'm opened to criticisms, taking them like a pinch of salt... I guess this one is a real blow bcos of the way other pple handled it.
I feel that all my efforts so far are all gone wasted... down the drain. How dare he said such a thing about me! And he has no right to judge me in that way cos he doesnt even work with me! Only on that particular event, he's just not happy at the way i execute my plan... and to think that one my close colleagues ( my senior) actually believed what he said! She is like my mentor and knows me and my working style and i've always put work first... sigh. so sad. and the way she mentioned this matter to me. so casual yet, 'right in the face'. i was stumped. The few days after that, I feel that i cannot go on working in such a backstabbing environment. Why put in so much effort, when it just take one occasion like this to ruin it? This guy is like the most coward person i know! Cos he didnt dare to tell it my face! I have had many unpleasant experiences at work before but this is just too much!
After much thinking, i realised that why should i be so strssed abt this. I must be strong and carry on what i think its best for me.